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Should have stayed in bed!!

  • Posted on December 30, 2009 at 2:22 pm

Okay, I know I should be trying to find the positive in he events of the day, but it just ain’t going to happen today!I woke up this morning and discovered that today was the 30 of December notthe 29(means that I have hours to make up next week), then I looked out the window and it was WHITE(I HATE snow) and now I feel a little green(I belive it was the speghetti I had for lunch.)I mean where is the positive in that?!

He who waits

  • Posted on December 21, 2009 at 10:26 am

Okay, this a rough draft for a poem that just poored out last night.Its called: He Who Waits.

Let Him in the scriptures say.
A simple phrase that at times can be easier said than done.
Let Him into your heart and you will see the man or woman He knows you can be.
Let Him into your soul and you will clearly see who you are and what you can be.
Let Him in he waits at your door.
He can only be invited so take the chance and you will see your life will NEVER be the same for he is the Savior of the World and his love will ever be the same.
The same for you, the same for me he paid the price. He knew for us to live he first would have to die.
Let Him in and you will see how his Atonement can change your life.
Don’t close your heart.Let Him in,let Him in…

Why is crying so Damn hard

  • Posted on December 16, 2009 at 10:13 am

Okay, so I deleted an entry. It was a draft that I started months ago. I deleted it because I realized that it wasn’t how I felt anymore. I actually wish I was having an out of body experience because then maybe the emotions that I feel would flow more freely instead of remaining just below the surface aching to be set free. A few days ago I watched a Christmas special and knew it would help me to cry. I don’t what it is but I just don’t cry to cry. My life is currently well…and I should have cried, but instead I have a head splitting headache (yes I have been drinking water.) and its been so bad that I have been going to bed every night this week at 8 P.M. no exceptions and my heart aches and I want to throw things and….cry until I can’t cry anymore. So why is it so damn hard!?


  • Posted on December 11, 2009 at 10:42 am

I believe that life is a proving ground and I also believe that our life is what we make it. The ironic thing is life experiences can either be of our making(the choices we make) or they can be generated out of no where(not within our control they just happen). I have come to know from personal experience that they both are equally just as difficult to cope with and I wonder, “what the hell.” and move on or I simply put my hands in the air and say,”I give.I am done.My heart can’t take any more.”
I’m there…

Hurt and pain

  • Posted on November 25, 2009 at 11:05 am

I am an individual who has adopted the philosophy let few people into your life because the less who know the real U the less U get hurt by them when they make changes that leave U out or they just simply move on.Anyway, its easier to put yourself down than it is to accept someone else’s criticism(even if they have a point).I didn’t just wake up one morning and say, “Hey that sounds like a good idea.”. It devloped over time because I decided that emotion hurt and pain just sucked. Life feels much better when I’m numb so when something life changing or tragic happens it is just momentary and doesn’t linger any longer than I want it to.I am in control not my hurt or my pain.Messed up, yes? Well, I am sitting at work my heart aches and my throat is tight. I am fighting tears that are beginning to burn my eyes because the fact is what I have failed to realize is life is constantly changing,some people mean WELL and some are just mean. It is a conscious choice how U choose to react because in the end, U only need to make decisions that will help U to be happy or find joy and it is then and only then that the pain and hurt u feel can be used for your benefit and sometimes for the benefit of others.Its not my job to make someone happy, but if I can help them on their journey I am happy to do it.

A Guide to PMS

  • Posted on November 5, 2009 at 8:08 am

A Guide to PMS

This is so true!! Men, you better pay attention!
Every “Hormone Hostage” knows that there are days in the month when all a man has to do is open his mouth and he takes his life in his hands.
This is a handy guide that should be as common as a driver’s license in the wallet of every husband, boyfriend or significant other.
* DANGEROUS: What’s for dinner?
* SAFER: Can I help you with dinner?
* SAFEST: Where would you like to go for dinner?

* DANGEROUS: Are you wearing THAT?
* SAFER: Gee, you look good in brown.
* SAFEST: Wow! Look at you!

* DANGEROUS: What are you so worked up about?
* SAFER: Honey, you’re overreacting…
* SAFEST: Here’s fifty dollars.

* DANGEROUS: Should you be eating that?
* SAFER: You know, there are a lot of apples left.
* SAFEST: Can I get you a glass of wine with that?

* DANGEROUS: What did YOU do all day?
* SAFER: I hope you didn’t overdo it today.
* SAFEST: I’ve always loved you in that robe.

* Pass My Shotgun
* Psychotic Mood Shift
* Perpetual Munching Spree
* Puffy MidSection
* People Make me Sick
* Provide Me with Sweets
* Pardon My Sobbing
* Pimples May Surface
* Pass My Sweatpants
* Plainly; Men Suck
* Pack My Stuff
* Permanent Menstrual Syndrome

Q: How many women with PMS does it take to change a light bulb?

A: One. Only ONE!!And do you know WHY? Because no one else in this house knows HOW to change a light bulb! They don’t even know that the bulb is BURNED OUT! They would sit in the dark for THREE DAYS before they figured it out. And, once they figured it out, they wouldn’t be able to find the light bulbs despite the fact that they’ve been in the SAME CUPBOARD for the past 17 YEARS! But if they did, by some miracle, actually find them… 2 DAYS LATER the chair they dragged to stand on to change the STUPID light bulb would STILL BE IN THE SAME SPOT!! AND UNDERNEATH IT WOULD BE THE WRAPPER THE


I’m sorry….what did you ask me?

Because I love you

  • Posted on October 20, 2009 at 11:16 am

What a wy to start off a week…

  • Posted on October 19, 2009 at 8:21 am

I got in my car this morning and the battery was not just dead it was DEAD!!I hadto call my boss for a ride. The ironic thing here is that the last time I drove it was on friday to get a sixpoint check at Les Sscwab and one of the problems was my battery. The thing is my car seems to have a mind of its own.I don’t turn the lights on on the miror and they seem to always come on. In fact, I think that it was them that draned my battery. Now the question is who has jumper cables cuz I don’t…maybe I should invest in some.


  • Posted on September 29, 2009 at 12:39 pm

I hate days that drag,days where my emotions are all over the place and I HATE days when I CANNOT focus!! It drives me literally insane, especially when I need to focus on projects at work or just want to feel happy and not have my emotions going in every direction. My hope in writing this is that I will get focused and be on task for the remainder of the day, well at least until I get off work. I geuss that is my first wish hopefully it won’t be wasted. Genie, I want to finish the work I set out to do and then go home with a sense of accomplishement and satisfaction that I got some important work done today. Well, here goes…

Saw him at the Idaho Center

  • Posted on September 29, 2009 at 7:33 am