siblings May 2009
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Tuesday, May 5th, 2009Thanks Ashlee!
It great to be unusual!!!
Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009So I went to the eye doctor in Salt Lake and he said that I was not a normal case and he knew it from the beginning. I should be a little offended right?! Nope. I was happy to hear that I wasn’t normal because that means my left eye is right on track and I can pursue getting new lenses, which means I will be able to see all day everyday instead of large font or blurry. It’s great to be unusual!!
family
Tuesday, March 31st, 2009I was just reading my cousin’s blog and one of her entries was about a day that her dad came and spent time with her girls and one of her nieces. It made me think about my dad and the time he spent with my kids and the joy it brought to their lives. I have two nieces and they mean just as much to him as my children when they were alive. Not that it should be any other way its just that it is just fun to watch my dad interact with his grand kids. I see a side of him that age and time has seemed to erode in my memory and when I see him play with them and hold them I am able to go back in time and remember my childhood and the memories of going with him on cattle drives, road trips and just the one-on-one time with my dad that made me feel like I was on top of the world. He did those same kinds of things with my kids. They absolutely loved riding Sweetie.
Raquel was so pleased with herself when she got to ride all by herself. She loved it so much that there were times she just DID NOT want to get off. My dad was such a softy because sometime he would take her around a couple more times before she would have to get off and let one of her brothers have a turn or Sweetie needed a rest and riding time was over.
About a week and a half ago I needed a blessing and so my dad and my brother-in-law came with my mom and sister to give me a blessing. After the blessing, they looked at the notebook that I had complied ,with my friend Maxine’s help, and we talked about Raquel and the boys. My dad mentioned that the picture I had chosen for the notebook of him and Raquel at Lacey’s wedding was his favorite and he also commented on the pictures of the kids on Sweetie. I know I have mentioned this before; however, some things are just worth repeating. We were able to share memories with each other that mean something to all of us. Michael will always be “Tough Guy” and my children will always and for eternity be grand children. It hurts sometimes when my mom brags like other grandmas do about the number of grand kids she has. It’s NOT because she brags it’s because four of the six grand children are not with us. They are just in our hearts and memories. I am glad that she mentions them despite the hurt because it reaffirms the testimony that I have of eternal families and I remember it was my mom who helped to cultivate that testimony.
It is because of my family old and new that I am able to look forward ,with a brightness of hope , to the time that I will be with my family once again Never to be separated from them.
Counting my blessings
Thursday, March 12th, 2009I promised to fill you in on why I need to focus on my blessings not my problems. Well it all started with a routine eye exam. I went in to my eye doctor because my lenses where scratched up something fierce. Well, my doctor looked in to my eyes and said I see a problem in your left eye. I want you to see Dr. Allan (a surgeon.).. Well, I made the appointment for the following Wednesday and sure enough there was a problem. He sent me to a retina specialist in Salt Lake and I had surgery to fix a hole in my retina. I wasn’t worried about the surgery thanks to someone who shared an inspirational experience from his life and, of course, a Father’s blessing. It’s the recovery. Its moving, in my opinion at a snail’s pace which is driving me crazy because the only print I can read clearly is extra large print and even it’s a little blurry. This is why when I feel frustrated I count my blessings. For example,
1. My vision is returning. There are other’s who are not as fortunate. It is a blessing also to now have empathy for them because I was able to experience what their world is like. I am grateful for my sight.
2. I have a family who has been willing to help me and support me through this as well as other trials that have been difficult.(Again, other are not blessed with such a great support system.)
3. The Priesthood and a dad who is worthy to use it righteously and happy to exercise it. I am grateful that my dad has been there countless times and I have been healed and comforted.
I could go on; however, I think you get the general idea. I am truly blessed so my sight will return and I will be prepared for what my Father in Heaven has in mind for me.
Beware this is a loong one!!!
Thursday, January 29th, 2009Today, I took the Myers Briggs Type Indicator in conjunction with a course I am taking for work. I have taken the test before. I was just curious if my personality had changed and sure enough the answer was a resounding ,”NO”! I am and will always be a:
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Introverted |
Sensing |
Feeling |
Judging |
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Strength of the preferences % |
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78 |
38 |
62 |
44 |
Guardian™ Portrait of the Protector (ISFJ)
Qualitative analysis of your type formula
You are:
- very expressed introvert
- moderately expressed sensing personality
- distinctively expressed feeling personality
- moderately expressed judging personality
Here are some interesting facts I learned about myself today:
Sooo true! We are lucky that Protectors make up as much as ten percent the population, because their primary interest is in the safety and security of those they care about – their family, their circle of friends, their students, their patients, their boss, their fellow-workers, or their employees. Protectors have an extraordinary sense of loyalty and responsibility in their makeup, and seem fulfilled in the degree they can shield others from the dirt and dangers of the world. Speculating and experimenting do not intrigue Protectors, who prefer to make do with time-honored and time-tested products and procedures rather than change to new. At work Protectors are seldom happy in situations where the rules are constantly changing, or where long-established ways of doing things are not respected. For their part, Protectors value tradition, both in the culture and in their family. Protectors believe deeply in the stability of social ranking conferred by birth, titles, offices, and credentials. And they cherish family history and enjoy caring for family property, from houses to heirlooms.
Wanting to be of service to others, Protectors find great satisfaction in assisting the downtrodden, and can deal with disability and neediness in others better than any other type. They are not as outgoing and talkative as the Provider Guardians [ESFJs], and their shyness is often misjudged as stiffness, even coldness, when in truth Protectors are warm-hearted and sympathetic, giving happily of themselves to those in need.
Their reserve ought really to be seen as an expression of their sincerity and seriousness of purpose. The most diligent of all the types, Protectors are willing to work long, hard hours quietly doing all the thankless jobs that others manage to avoid. Protectors are quite happy working alone; in fact, in positions of authority they may try to do everything themselves rather than direct others to get the job done. Thoroughness and frugality are also virtues for them. When Protectors undertake a task, they will complete it if humanly possible. They also know better than any other type the value of a dollar, and they abhor the squandering or misuse of money. To save, to put something aside against an unpredictable future, to prepare for emergencies-these are actions near and dear to the Protector’s heart. For all these reasons, Protectors are frequently overworked, just as they are frequently misunderstood and undervalued. Their contributions, and also their economies, are often taken for granted, and they rarely get the gratitude they deserve.Ain’t that the truth!!
Famous ISFJs:
St. Teresa of Avila (Teresa de Jesus)
Louisa May Alcott
Alfred, Lord Tennyson
Queen Elizabeth II of England
Robert E. Lee
Queen Mary I (“Bloody Mary”) of England
Fictional:
Bianca in Taming of the Shrew
David Copperfield
Hero in Much Ado About Nothing
Melanie in Gone With The Wind
Ophelia in Hamlet
Dr. John H. Watson, M.D. (Sherlock Holmes’ faithful sidekick)
U.S. Presidents:
William Howard Taft
Johnny Carson, comedian
Robin Roberts (Good Morning America)
Kristi Yamaguchi, US Olympic figure skater
Ed Bradley, journalist
Interesting: Guardian women look for traditions to start or maintain. They are generally suckers for flowers (I didn’t used to be I HATED to receive flowers because they died), cards, chocolates, and the like. They are among the most likely to notice and appreciate signs of status unless these signs are flaunted, such as entrance into an exclusive club and being welcomed by name at a trendy restaurant. Men often appreciate Guardian women who lavishly pamper their partners.
No surprises here! The only differences are that the boyfriend became my husband and the man that will treat me like a queen has yet to appear. Leilah is a Guardian Protector (ISFJ). Guys often didn’t even notice her in high school because she was so shy. In college, she had one long-lasting romance. However, her boyfriend turned out to be abusive. Since he would always apologize and she is very trusting and loyal, she stuck by him. The abuse escalated, so she finally left. Now she is dating a man who treats her like a queen. She’d like to marry him, but she’s afraid he might change afterward.
What type are you?
I feel good…
Wednesday, January 28th, 2009Well it looks as though my New Year’s Resolutions are going to stick. Its been 28 days now for most of them (some I started later). My room was the most difficult to start. I mean I looked at my nicely made bed for a week or so before I decided to have my room match my bed. I am also thinking about starting a new resolution; however, that depends on the cost and if I can get someone to do it with me. My hope is to get a walking pass at the local rec center and walk two miles three days a week until the weather is more accommodating. I walked last summer and then stopped cold when it was to cold and white and it shows in my physical appearance and mental clarity(Things that used to fit don’t and my mind is just absolutely shot). I got the idea when I went with some friends to the rec center because they wanted to check it out and start a membership. I think I can swing a small fee now because I changed auto insurance and I will be saving about 120 dollars for six months with the same coverage. I can’t say I feel great; however, I do feel better about myself and that was the purpose. I am well on my way! I am well pleased(0:
family
Wednesday, January 21st, 2009Okay, this is a first, I believe. I am going to post something family related that is praise not gripe. My brother Shane is the kindest sweetest guy you’ll ever meet. For those that read this rant/blog you already know I live with him and Ira. Well, what you possibly don’t know is he would walk through fire for me and, if that wasn’t enough, he gave me a room and asked for nothing in return except that I help keep things clean. Well, today, I called him up because he was home because my car wouldn’t start (I left the lights on and drained the battery.) and I needed a jump and some lunch. He came with some DQ chicken stripes and jumped my car for me. I know, I know you’re thinking we’re family it’s a given; however, I still am very grateful for what he has done for me. I just have never talked about this stuff on my rant/blog and felt it was about time that I record my gratitude. Saying thank you never seems to be enough.
almost a week…
Wednesday, January 14th, 2009Its going well so far. I have been able to keep my resolutions for almost a week. YAY!!! I’m half way to developing a habit. I have heard that it takes 14 days to develop a habit. I have been able to do things for 14 days and they were good; however, I wasn’t doing them for me. This time I am doing them for me sooooo hopefully this time the habit will become a way I conduct my life and not just another phase that goes great guns and then just fizzles. I’m tired of all the good I do to improve myself and then having my life loose it fizzle like pop that is left out. It’s a new year , I deserve it and I am not sugar water!!!
Resolutions
Wednesday, January 7th, 2009I never really have any New Year’s Resolutions and if I do they aren’t kept for long. This year I decided to hive it a good effort so I made some simple and easily manageable resolutions most of which deal with habits that I have developed over the years. For example: I will make my bed every morning in an effort to motivate me to clean or kept clean which ever comes first. I mean what a hassle to get in under the sheets and blankets when they are in a heap.
Another resolutions I have made is keeping better track of where my money goes and along with that to save more and spend less. In my experience when it rains it pours so to have money in reserve really isn’t an option it is a requirement. I have taken more money out of my savings for the safety because I tend to make impulse buys without thinking and my hope is that with this resolution I can save for things I really need like new glasses and car maintenance or emergencies.
My hope by making these resolutions and others that I will feel that I am moving ahead in my life instead of feeling like I am moving through a sea of tar.
Tomorrow…
Friday, December 19th, 2008Tomorrow marks the three year anniversary of Justin, Spencer, and Raquel’s Death. A lot has happened since that tragic day.
1. I graduated from the College of Southern Idaho.
2. I met new friends who have helped me through this journey.
3. Forgiveness,let me clarify this one. I forgave Jim almost immediately for his actions. I think that this came with his conviction. Some people have said he Should have received the death pennaltyfor his actions and asked me if what I felt about his sentance and I said that it is as it should be. When asked why I said simply that he can live his life thinking about what he did to his own children and my hope is someday his heart will be filled with regret. If he were to have gotten the death penalty he would not have the opportunity to learn anything and think on the graveness of his actions.In my opinion, his actions would have been rewarded and he would have had no time to feel remorse because in his mind he did our children a service by taking their lives and to him death was not a punishment it was a reward for his actions because he felt he would be with them because he had saved them from a life with me and my family . It is because I know he paying for his actions that I have forgiven him. In the last few months, I came to forgive his parents as well. I just decided that it was time because I wanted to be free from the hurt and pain that I felt was a result of his parent’s actions. I did this with the help of my new friend,Maxine.
4. I wrecked my car.
5. I found a new car and with it came more new friends.
6. I love and laugh
7. I have gained a strong testimony of my savior and his Atonement and the role it plays in our everyday lives.
8. A gratitude for the small things
9. Worrying about things doesn’t make them go away it makes them appear bigger than they really are. So it just isn’t woth my time,
The list could go on; however, I think you get the idea. I miss my children;however, their death hasn’t taken away mine. Justin, Spencer, Ian and Raquel I love you!