Monday, October 20th, 2008
Well, I finally figured out why I feel overwhemed sometimes…i bring it all on myself!! I am a big sister so I have big sister syndrome(whether your my flesh and blood or not), I hold onto emtions that should otherwise be let go and I don’t tell people these things. i woke up this morning and I was like that’s it I can’t do this to myself anymore. So I did the senseable thing I let most of it go. I say most of it because I feel that some of it can only be let go by saying what’s on my mind. The other stuff was easier to let go of that I had originally thought. For example, I have had a difficult tim determining whether I had actually forgiven the parents of the man who took the life of our children. it has bothered me for quite some time well this morning I embodied all my anger into this cardgame, that they enjoy playing with their family, and pictured myself setting this game on their front porch swing with a note asking them to forgive me for the anger that I have harbored and you know what? It worked! I honestly think that if i were to see them I could face them and have a conversation with them instead of turning my face away in hopes that they didn’t see me and avoiding contact of any kind. There are still some things that I need to take care of ; however, I know that I can do it with the help of my Savior and this time I will not take it back because it just isn’t worth it and I want to stop feeling as though I am one of those that spit and mocked the Savior by insisting I can deal with my burdens by myself.
Well, that’s my deep thought for the day. If you have burdens that are overwhelming you my big sister advise is to find a way to let go its worth it!
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Friday, October 10th, 2008
Right now I am listening to Never Saw Blue Like That by Shawn Colvin. I’ve been in a Runaway Bride mood the last couple of days and this particular song seems to stick out as well as Maneater by John Oats and You’re the Only One for Me by Allure.
Do you ever wonder why songs or movies seem to just pop into your head and for like a day or sometimes days all you want to do is listen to that music or watch that movie? I do. Its like my subconscience is trying to talk to me or my subconscience is telling my conscience self,”Your lying to yourself. You know how you feel. Just feel it its okay.” . Deep huh? I know I must be talking all kinds of nonsense; however, sometimes its the nonsense that makes the most sense.Wouldn’t you agree!? I have never been soo happily confused like this before. Its usually just unhappy and confused. I am sooo glad my “Eeore days” are few and far between because they really are such a drag. Anyways, I’m done talking nonsense now.
Enjoy the music!
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Wednesday, October 1st, 2008
I don’t think that I have done a review on this one yet. So here it is: its a wonderful love story with an awesome quote and beautiful music. I woke up this morning with this quote by Aristotle going through my mind: Friendship is a single soul dwelling in two bodies. Isn’t that just awesome! Anyway, back to the movie for just a sec then back then i will address the quote again because it inspired a very curious thought. I love how the movie shows what love truely is. It is a deep friendship that goes beyond hanging out and making out. Its the desire to fullfill the dreams and desires of the other, its respect, its aiming high, its wanting to do and be a better person. You don’t change who you are; you just make improvements not because they want you to its because you see for yourself where you can do better. The rose colored glasses are never needed because you see them for who they really are. They are not afraid to be themselves around you and it gives you the unique opportunity to witness a miracle because you bring out the best in them and they bring out the best in you! Threre is an equal give and take and sacrifices are made because you love them and you know without a doubt that they love you in return.
Its not just any love its true love which brings me to my curiuos thought: true love is like joy it is eternal and everlasting because you can go through this life and fall into and out of love beceause love is just love and its the same with happiness you can have periods where you are happy and periods when your not because happiness is fleeting. While, on the other hand, joy is more than just a state of mind it is a way of life and true love is more than a choice or a state of mind; its deeply interwoven into your soul and has become part of you. Ineresting way to look at love and joy isn’t it?
The movie is a total chick flick! 5+++
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