I am an individual who has adopted the philosophy let few people into your life because the less who know the real U the less U get hurt by them when they make changes that leave U out or they just simply move on.Anyway, its easier to put yourself down than it is to accept someone else’s criticism(even if they have a point).I didn’t just wake up one morning and say, “Hey that sounds like a good idea.”. It devloped over time because I decided that emotion hurt and pain just sucked. Life feels much better when I’m numb so when something life changing or tragic happens it is just momentary and doesn’t linger any longer than I want it to.I am in control not my hurt or my pain.Messed up, yes? Well, I am sitting at work my heart aches and my throat is tight. I am fighting tears that are beginning to burn my eyes because the fact is what I have failed to realize is life is constantly changing,some people mean WELL and some are just mean. It is a conscious choice how U choose to react because in the end, U only need to make decisions that will help U to be happy or find joy and it is then and only then that the pain and hurt u feel can be used for your benefit and sometimes for the benefit of others.Its not my job to make someone happy, but if I can help them on their journey I am happy to do it.

This entry was posted on Wednesday, November 25th, 2009 at 11:05 am and is filed under Life, Uncategorized. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can leave a response, or trackback from your own site.