Well, I finally figured out why I feel overwhemed sometimes…i bring it all on myself!! I am a big sister so I have big sister syndrome(whether your my flesh and blood or not), I hold onto emtions that should otherwise be let go and I don’t tell people these things. i woke up this morning and I was like that’s it I can’t do this to myself anymore. So I did the senseable thing I let most of it go. I say most of it because I feel that some of it can only be let go by saying what’s on my mind. The other stuff was easier to let go of that I had originally thought. For example, I have had a difficult tim determining whether I had actually forgiven the parents of the man who took the life of our children. it has bothered me for quite some time well this morning I embodied all my anger into this cardgame, that they enjoy playing with their family, and pictured myself setting this game on their front porch swing with a note asking them to forgive me for the anger that I have harbored and you know what? It worked! I honestly think that if i were to see them I could face them and have a conversation with them instead of turning my face away in hopes that they didn’t see me and avoiding contact of any kind. There are still some things that I need to take care of ; however, I know that I can do it with the help of my Savior and this time I will not take it back because it just isn’t worth it and I want to stop feeling as though I am one of those that spit and mocked the Savior by insisting I can deal with my burdens by myself.
Well, that’s my deep thought for the day. If you have burdens that are overwhelming you my big sister advise is to find a way to let go its worth it!