Last night I spent the evening with my dear friend Maxine sharing pictures and memories of my children with her. It was very healing for me and it was amazing how the meories just flowed when I saw pictures. I would see a picture and it was like I was taken back to that very moment it was taken. I can’t do that with all of them; however, it was comforting to know that I still have memories. Lately, I have been feeling like I am having an out of body experience only it isn’t myself that I am looking down on. Not only that I feel like my children are fading into the distance because the only time I can really recall happy memories is when I am looking at pictures. That isn’t just frustrating to me its scary because I carried my precious ones for nine months, I worried about them, I dried their tears and I love them!! How can 6 yrs of beautiful memories just vanish leaving just a void or immense pain in their place?
my sweet babies
October 16th, 2008
Yaay I finally got logged in after getting a new password and trying like 20 times to enter it correctly. I love your website, I had no idea how much you write in it. You have some really inspirational stories and poems, and hilarious jokes too. Don’t worry, your kids will me more than a memory to you again someday!